You do though. You let him get away with a lot of shit.
[Opening his eyes enough to look down at Toudou through his lashes, curling softer strands around his fingers as he just watches him, Arakita only lets out a soft little puff of air from his nose in an exhale.]
But if that's what you want to do, it's kind of your choice. He could still use a wake up call, I mean, that's what you'd do to me when you think I'm bein a shit.
[ It came after a long pause, Toudou's eyes closing in that quiet moment.
It was rare for him to ask things like that. He was better versed in social relations and what to do than Arakita was, and he bragged about it constantly. Yet, he felt like he was at a loss. He knew what he wanted to do, but he didn't know if there was another option. ]
You could upfront tell him how he hurts you with bein distant. Like, I get he might not be doin it on purpose, but that's what friends do.
[It's an option, though it may not be the best one. Slipping his fingers more securely into Toudou's hair and tipping his head down, shifting to gently bump their foreheads together, Arakita shut his eyes again too and breathed in and out slowly.]
Could just tell him your feelings and get it all out. Just tell him everything and then explain what you're doing now if he's accusing you of being the distant one. You literally drop anything for him, you know.
[ It's been months since he's climbed. It's been a longer break than he's ever had. He needs that normalcy back. He wants to feel the crisp air, smell the trees, and just ride until his legs give out. ]
[In other words; that's fine. Stroking his fingertips gently against Toudou's scalp now and cracking his eyes open just a little to gaze at him, Arakita keeps up the idle ministrations while breathing in deep through his nose. He wants to exhaust himself at climbing, alright. Arakita will take care of bringing him home.]
Yeah. I'll be ready and we can leave together. It's supposed to be cold over there, so dress accordingly.
[ He sighed, feeling Arakita's fingers against his scalp. It was soothing and nice, so much that he didn't want to move from this. It was comforting and nice, just laying together with this air between them. ]
You don't have to tell me twice to dress warm. You sure you don't want a scarf?
[Now he's just teasing, continuing the easy movements with his hands and just listening to how Toudou sighs - huh. So he likes having his hair pet, that's probably a given considering the care he puts into it. Combing his fingers through the longer locks and eventually drawing his touch down to kneading at the back of his neck, Arakita lets his gaze move along some of those strands.]
... Your hair is startin to grow out kind've long.
[ He smirked at him. The cold would make his body hurt, but he complained a lot less than Arakita and Shinkai about the cold, but that didn't mean it didn't effect him.
The comment on his hair got him looking down at the ends and then back to Arakita. He should trim down a little. Letting it get too long too last wasn't good. ]
It's better at my shoulders, isn't it? Or do you like it longer?
Are you gonna make them match, cause I'm gonna bury it under about six layers.
[Giving him a little squint, even if his tone is still playful, he smooths his fingers all the way to the ends of Toudou's hair now in longer strokes, as if he's seeing just how far it goes when straightened out.]
Long hair might suit you. It looks fine no matter the length. [He'd like it longer.]
Long hair, huh? I didn't think that was your type.
[ He laughed out at him, smiling. Maybe Arakita liked that on girls, but he didn't think about it on him or someone else. His own air brushed past his shoulders now after all of these months of growth without an actual trim. He'd go to get it trimmed down soon to where it was, he was telling himself. Keeping it slightly longer wasn't bad either, though. ]
Tch, what do you think my type is then, y'expert??
[Arakita just continues running his fingers along the silky strands, curling them around his fingers and then letting go just to feel them slip away and start the cycle of stroking through them again.]
Yeah, fine, longer. I mean, can't hurt to grow it out. If you hate it, you can cut it.
I've been growing it out all of high school, you know? I use to wear it pretty short but decided it would be better longer as I grew.
[ It just looked better. He sighed slowly, scooting enough that he was brushing against Arakita. If he had to be over, if they were going to lay like this, They should be fully touching. ]
I remember that much, that it used to be shorter. Shinkai showed me old photos before, you didn't start wearing headbands until it started gettin longer like this.
[Arakita didn't put up any fuss or fight when Toudou moved in closer, he just shifted his legs to let him in until they were almost tangled together, cheek set down against those soft silky locks he still touches.]
What makes you think that, and that can't be all you think I'm into.
I wore the headbands during matches to keep my hair out of my eyes. As it got longer, it looked better.
[ So maybe Arakita was right. Maybe cuddling wasn't so bad. The feeling of Arakita surrounding him was comforting. The warmth and gentleness between them was better than rolling on is bed alone. ]
No, but you didn't deny it either. It just seems like it's what you pay attention to. That's pretty much how Fuku handled you.
That's what helmets are for, idiot. It can't be comfortable to wear under your helmet.
[Grumbling that out while listening to just what he's saying about "Arakita's type", Arakita still couldn't really find it in himself to deny that. No, he does kind of like being bossed around, it gives him at least some idea of what to do. He always blanks a bit himself, because there's so much he would want to do.]
Fuku-chan wouldn't tell me jack shit sometimes though. You remember my first race, he literally just said "come to the front if you have questions" and took off and I didn't even know the damn rules!
I mean before I started doing this so much! I was against helmets because no one ever looks good taking one off. It's a mess on your hair. It's why I didn't even want to do cycling in the first place.
[ Arakita would eventually find out that Toudou had offers from other sports clubs in the past and turned them down too for similar reasons. If he can't look good doing it, he doesn't want to do it. That was the bottom line. ]
Fuku is always like that. He's a lot more shy than people give him credit for. I do hope you eventually realized that meant he wanted you to take it easy and get a feel for the race and what was expected of you. Knowing you though, I bet you raced ahead without thinking.
[He started to ask, he was about to with his mouth opening and a squinted expression crossing his face, he wanted to ask about what other teams Toudou actually looked into - but then Toudou was continuing and Arakita felt his ears color a little as he scowled abruptly. And squeezed his arms a bit.]
I chased him four laps into it, caught up and promptly passed out. So, yeah. I guess. He could have just said as much though! [He couldn't have known back then though, not nearly as well as he's come to know Fukutomi now. He can agree, that he is a lot more shy than most people would know.]
If he told you straight out, you wouldn't learn anything!
[ Maybe this was why Toudou and Fukutomi worked well as the captain and vice-captain. Thie values were very close to one another's. Toudou could understand what Fuku means without needed more explanation than given. It was more than just his climbing talent and the fact Shinkai and Arakita were terrible co-choices that landed him there. ... not that anyone would realize it]
I didn't learn anythin for charging either though!
[Arakita can't help barking back, scowling because he remembers just how that conversation went. He literally caught up and all Fukutomi had to say was "what was your question?". He doesn't remember what his question was, even now.]
Fuck no! Shinkai was there too! What the hell, Toudou!!
[Nope, belligerent barking doge, even if he lets him shift to calm his laughter and then roll back to smile at him like that. Tipping his head down to tuck his nose against Toudou's hair, growling under his breath, Arakita kneads his fingers against the climbers back, just antsy and needing the movement, as little as it is.]
[ Shinkai was there. So what? Shinkai doesn't care or mind the close relationship between Fuku and Arakita. If he remembered right, Shinkai was pulling for him that race. He didn't see a problem.
With the growing, he reached up behind him and up to the back of his head, scrubbing his fingers toward the crown of his hair, quietly petting him. It took him a moment to remember this action and frowns. ]
I use to do this for Shinkai.
[ He was looking up now, to his fingers gently petting his head. ]
[The growling subsides slowly with those scratches and pets, enough that when Toudou speaks up like that, Arakita flicks his eyes down with his growls quieted and his expression far more content.]
[It's partially a joke, even if he shifts his eyes away and blows a few locks of hair away from his mouth. He's not really sure what to make of that information, it's different than he thought would have been a thing. It's not so strange, they're doing that right now, aren't they? Toudou's petting his hair.]
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on 2016-07-13 02:33 am (UTC)[Opening his eyes enough to look down at Toudou through his lashes, curling softer strands around his fingers as he just watches him, Arakita only lets out a soft little puff of air from his nose in an exhale.]
But if that's what you want to do, it's kind of your choice. He could still use a wake up call, I mean, that's what you'd do to me when you think I'm bein a shit.
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on 2016-07-13 02:49 am (UTC)[ It came after a long pause, Toudou's eyes closing in that quiet moment.
It was rare for him to ask things like that. He was better versed in social relations and what to do than Arakita was, and he bragged about it constantly. Yet, he felt like he was at a loss. He knew what he wanted to do, but he didn't know if there was another option. ]
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on 2016-07-13 03:09 am (UTC)[It's an option, though it may not be the best one. Slipping his fingers more securely into Toudou's hair and tipping his head down, shifting to gently bump their foreheads together, Arakita shut his eyes again too and breathed in and out slowly.]
Could just tell him your feelings and get it all out. Just tell him everything and then explain what you're doing now if he's accusing you of being the distant one. You literally drop anything for him, you know.
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on 2016-07-13 05:27 am (UTC)[ It's been months since he's climbed. It's been a longer break than he's ever had. He needs that normalcy back. He wants to feel the crisp air, smell the trees, and just ride until his legs give out. ]
I'll have everything I need to say figured out.
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on 2016-07-13 11:26 pm (UTC)[In other words; that's fine. Stroking his fingertips gently against Toudou's scalp now and cracking his eyes open just a little to gaze at him, Arakita keeps up the idle ministrations while breathing in deep through his nose. He wants to exhaust himself at climbing, alright. Arakita will take care of bringing him home.]
So we'll go early in the morning.
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on 2016-07-14 06:33 pm (UTC)[ He sighed, feeling Arakita's fingers against his scalp. It was soothing and nice, so much that he didn't want to move from this. It was comforting and nice, just laying together with this air between them. ]
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on 2016-07-14 08:52 pm (UTC)[Now he's just teasing, continuing the easy movements with his hands and just listening to how Toudou sighs - huh. So he likes having his hair pet, that's probably a given considering the care he puts into it. Combing his fingers through the longer locks and eventually drawing his touch down to kneading at the back of his neck, Arakita lets his gaze move along some of those strands.]
... Your hair is startin to grow out kind've long.
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on 2016-07-15 05:12 am (UTC)[ He smirked at him. The cold would make his body hurt, but he complained a lot less than Arakita and Shinkai about the cold, but that didn't mean it didn't effect him.
The comment on his hair got him looking down at the ends and then back to Arakita. He should trim down a little. Letting it get too long too last wasn't good. ]
It's better at my shoulders, isn't it? Or do you like it longer?
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on 2016-07-15 05:18 am (UTC)[Giving him a little squint, even if his tone is still playful, he smooths his fingers all the way to the ends of Toudou's hair now in longer strokes, as if he's seeing just how far it goes when straightened out.]
Long hair might suit you. It looks fine no matter the length. [He'd like it longer.]
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on 2016-07-15 09:21 am (UTC)[ He laughed out at him, smiling. Maybe Arakita liked that on girls, but he didn't think about it on him or someone else. His own air brushed past his shoulders now after all of these months of growth without an actual trim. He'd go to get it trimmed down soon to where it was, he was telling himself. Keeping it slightly longer wasn't bad either, though. ]
But you want it a little longer, don't you?
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on 2016-07-15 03:38 pm (UTC)[Arakita just continues running his fingers along the silky strands, curling them around his fingers and then letting go just to feel them slip away and start the cycle of stroking through them again.]
Yeah, fine, longer. I mean, can't hurt to grow it out. If you hate it, you can cut it.
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on 2016-07-15 06:44 pm (UTC)[ It just looked better. He sighed slowly, scooting enough that he was brushing against Arakita. If he had to be over, if they were going to lay like this, They should be fully touching. ]
You like being told what to do and how.
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on 2016-07-15 06:47 pm (UTC)[Arakita didn't put up any fuss or fight when Toudou moved in closer, he just shifted his legs to let him in until they were almost tangled together, cheek set down against those soft silky locks he still touches.]
What makes you think that, and that can't be all you think I'm into.
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on 2016-07-15 07:01 pm (UTC)[ So maybe Arakita was right. Maybe cuddling wasn't so bad. The feeling of Arakita surrounding him was comforting. The warmth and gentleness between them was better than rolling on is bed alone. ]
No, but you didn't deny it either. It just seems like it's what you pay attention to. That's pretty much how Fuku handled you.
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on 2016-07-16 03:44 am (UTC)[Grumbling that out while listening to just what he's saying about "Arakita's type", Arakita still couldn't really find it in himself to deny that. No, he does kind of like being bossed around, it gives him at least some idea of what to do. He always blanks a bit himself, because there's so much he would want to do.]
Fuku-chan wouldn't tell me jack shit sometimes though. You remember my first race, he literally just said "come to the front if you have questions" and took off and I didn't even know the damn rules!
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on 2016-07-18 11:25 pm (UTC)[ Arakita would eventually find out that Toudou had offers from other sports clubs in the past and turned them down too for similar reasons. If he can't look good doing it, he doesn't want to do it. That was the bottom line. ]
Fuku is always like that. He's a lot more shy than people give him credit for. I do hope you eventually realized that meant he wanted you to take it easy and get a feel for the race and what was expected of you. Knowing you though, I bet you raced ahead without thinking.
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on 2016-07-21 12:12 am (UTC)I chased him four laps into it, caught up and promptly passed out. So, yeah. I guess. He could have just said as much though! [He couldn't have known back then though, not nearly as well as he's come to know Fukutomi now. He can agree, that he is a lot more shy than most people would know.]
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on 2016-07-21 12:29 am (UTC)[ Maybe this was why Toudou and Fukutomi worked well as the captain and vice-captain. Thie values were very close to one another's. Toudou could understand what Fuku means without needed more explanation than given. It was more than just his climbing talent and the fact Shinkai and Arakita were terrible co-choices that landed him there. ... not that anyone would realize it]
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on 2016-07-22 12:45 am (UTC)[Arakita can't help barking back, scowling because he remembers just how that conversation went. He literally caught up and all Fukutomi had to say was "what was your question?". He doesn't remember what his question was, even now.]
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on 2016-07-23 10:38 pm (UTC)[ He was laughing against him, turning away and then turning back when he's calm again, smiling. ]
Did you just feel lost being thrown in by yourself and wanted to be close to him?
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on 2016-07-24 04:10 am (UTC)[Nope, belligerent barking doge, even if he lets him shift to calm his laughter and then roll back to smile at him like that. Tipping his head down to tuck his nose against Toudou's hair, growling under his breath, Arakita kneads his fingers against the climbers back, just antsy and needing the movement, as little as it is.]
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on 2016-07-24 02:37 pm (UTC)[ Shinkai was there. So what? Shinkai doesn't care or mind the close relationship between Fuku and Arakita. If he remembered right, Shinkai was pulling for him that race. He didn't see a problem.
With the growing, he reached up behind him and up to the back of his head, scrubbing his fingers toward the crown of his hair, quietly petting him. It took him a moment to remember this action and frowns. ]
I use to do this for Shinkai.
[ He was looking up now, to his fingers gently petting his head. ]
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on 2016-07-25 11:11 pm (UTC)[The growling subsides slowly with those scratches and pets, enough that when Toudou speaks up like that, Arakita flicks his eyes down with his growls quieted and his expression far more content.]
What, you'd pet him?
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on 2016-07-26 03:34 am (UTC)[ It was just something he did at times. It was never explained, never commented on. He would just pet him in their quiet moments. ]
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on 2016-07-27 03:28 am (UTC)[It's partially a joke, even if he shifts his eyes away and blows a few locks of hair away from his mouth. He's not really sure what to make of that information, it's different than he thought would have been a thing. It's not so strange, they're doing that right now, aren't they? Toudou's petting his hair.]
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